ME...

I'm old and useless
unproductive and timid
dim-witted because I'm brainless
and possess an ugly face.

When you look at my outside being,
I look like just nothing
because I don't possess the beauty
living souls want it to be.

I've low intelligence quotient
ignorant as I am
I'm just a trying hard one
just to feel my being a human.

My life's journey is sad
because nothing is for me
little time to experience happiness
quickly take it away from me.

If this is my life be
why do I need to exist in this world?
why do I have to suffer from an excruciating pain?
and feel my life in vain.

There's no such thing as lucky in my life's journey
There's no such blessings to come my way
There's no such happiness meant for me
For I am born to be a misery.

What I feel is not a sign of insecurity
because I am, a human who wants live righteously
who fears the LORD as my everything but my imperfections striking me.

I know where to put myself and where to stand
but allow me to express the pain I feel inside
bombarding questions draws in my mind
to lighten my feeling and totally resigned.

I feel life is cruel to me
to be imprisoned in its cage of humanity
but this is the way it used to be
my outer life's existence bound to be.

My inner being is the best guide I have in me
because it brings me into the pool of good reality
building strong foundation in my agony
acceptance of suffering is a real blessing for me.

Inner, outer being I possess as my identity
teaching me the real meaning of my journey
leading me to trod the right way
to enter the gate of heavenly.

Thank you, my guide for this life you gave me
Thank you for the wisdom YOU are feeding me
Thank you for everything as YOU are everything to me
AD MAJOREM DEI GLORIAM, JESUS UFAM TOBIE
I LOVE YOU, please, never leave me.